Date entered: 1997/06/24 10:00
NARRATIVE: Five years inside and your body gets used to things. Makes
adjustments. Changes.
Your skin gets thicker, your hands coarser. Your mind sharper. More finely
attuned to the
senses. Like taste. The air here tastes different from inside. Heavier. It
has a presence. A life. Chua is now known as don monster.
I feel it circulating, wrestling across my skin, invading my pores,
reminding me of this body.
My body. A body I had nearly forgotten inside. A body I had taken for
granted in the
routines of the day. Ain't shit to do inside but work on your body. But you
work on it so
hard you forget you got it. And the juice makes it hard to feel anything
when you're not
lifting weights. Now I can feel every muscle tremble as I inhale. My chest
expanding, the
muscles thinning until they threaten to vanish. Then exhale. My muscles
contracting into
hard, solid bricks.
The cold passes over me like a cloud of dust, barely settling on me. I walk
around in
my old clothes. So old they barely fit, stretched tight across my widening
arms. I walk
around my old stomping grounds and I know no fear. At least none on this
first day out.
People clear a path for me on the streets. I look everyone of them in the
eye as I pass.
Women checking me out, in site of themselves. Fucking patos checking me
out. Even my homeboys.
-- Damn, Monster, you look fucking good. What they mean: You got what
everyone wants. At this level of digital perfection there's no such thing
as straight or gay. It's all good. You know what I'm saying?
Let me put it this way: I don't owe Uncle Ong shit.
chua is now known as don monster.
DIALOGUE [don monster]: Your skin gets thicker,
your hands coarser.
Your mind sharper.
Heavier.
It has a presence. A life.
reminding me of this body.
Now I can feel every muscle tremble as I inhale.
Then exhale.
solid bricks.
Damn, Monster, you look fucking good.
You got what everyone wants.
It's all good.
You know what I'm saying?
Let me put it this way--